Well, I was telling Cara about this the other day, but I have been thinking much about this and thought I would post on it.
I started this summer off so determined not to waste my summer that I am starting to do just the opposite. I think I have taken on too much. Where now, instead of doing a few things well, I'm doing many things and not doing them the best I could. bottom line: Busyness does not equal fruitfulness
As I read an article by CJ Mahaney today, he said:
- Busyness does not mean I am diligent
- Busyness does not mean I am faithful
- Busyness does not mean I am fruitful
For example. I have not been faithful to reply to the DHT questions. I have been faithful to read the chapters and post the questions. I but I basically read the chapter and then checked it off my list of things to do for the week. So, I haven't really benefited from the study and there hasn't been any fruit.
I think I am going through too many books right now. I'm trying to read throuhg 9 different books(several of them are some type of group study) and instead of growing through these things, it's turning into a very non-productive and unfruitful thing.
If you can't already tell, I'm the type of girl that wants to do everything and wants to be involved in everything. I want to take everything and I want to make everything work. I want to grow spiritually. But, I'm slowly learning that doing a 'hard thing' is not always being busy and being involved in everything. I'm learning that doing a hard thing is to discern when I should participate in something and when I'm just going through the motions with another thing I signed up for or took on.
There is a difference in between doing hard things and just doing too much.
So, I'm going to be praying on what God wants me to focus on. I may have to narrow a few things down, or maybe just push something off until the future. If I don't, I don't think I'm going to be serving God like I could be. I want to to be balanced for the rest of this summer and throught this upcoming school year. As it's only going to get fuller with work and school.
I will continue to post the weekly DHT study questions, but I'm starting to feel led to drop that study for now so I can pursue excellence in other things. I will restart my weekly accountablity posts, as long as someone is growing from them.
Lastly, I would like to see if any of you have thoughts on this topic. Have any of you had this same struggle? How did you narrow things down? After you narrowed things down to what you felt more led to do, did you see more growth? Does anyone have any verses to share that reminds them of this topic?
I apperciate your thoughts and I hope you all undertstand,
Emily Joy
